Sunday, July 02, 2006
I want to thank you all for your concern and prayers during this very difficult week. I'm not going to get into the details, but suffice it to say that the miscarriage actually took all week. My body is now slowly recovering (not use to being anemic). Hormonally, I told Ed that it feels like I have a hurricane brewing in my head. I can't really say that I'm having mood swings because right now my mood is perpetually "stormy". I'm hoping that eases up soon because it consumes a lot of energy as well. Emotionally, I'm doing better. Ed and I have had many discussions about whether we will try to expand the size of our family again. And I think we are both very comfortable with the decision to be thrilled with the blessings we already have. Although we definitely have the love to share with another child, we also know that are resources (money, time, energy) will be strained with another one. We are now at a place where we can truly appreciate all that we do have and not want for more. We now want to focus on our children and on us. We realize we need some time to reconnect with each other and make our relationship a priority once again. And I must say that Ed's love, compassion and humor this past week kept me sane and made our loss much more bearable.